A new start

To my lost friend,

There was a time when we were deemed inseparable. A time when there were no secrets between us, no scope for them. There never was an awkward moment between us. We could read each others' deepest thoughts. Not a decision was taken without discussing first. Friends come and friends go. Not all my friends would be with me forever. I had accepted this fact long ago. But you were the one friend I had counted on keeping with me forever. My adamant mind refused to accept that not having you with me would even be a remote possibility. Life without you was unimaginable to me, you see. You were my best friend and my first one.

Then the time came for us to fly out of our cozy nest. To prepare for the future. Nothing much changed between us. Sure, we met a lot of other folks, made other good friends. But we were still the best of friends.

We moved on. Our actions, our decisions, our destiny brought us to different places in life, inevitably. You remained my best friend. But I sensed a slight aloofness. I pooh poohed all my silly thoughts that we were drifting apart. I consoled myself. Surely mere distance will not impact a lifetime of friendship and trust. Right? Then the day dawned when my fears came true. That moment felt like a bolt of lightning had struck me.That was a tear right in the middle of of our yarn of friendship and trust. I knew that things would never be the same again, EVER. And so it has been. Through the years, we have grown up, leading lives hidden from each other's view. It doesn't have to be so, but it is the truth. We keep in touch but through others.

Those long pauses, awkward silences when we do talk makes me wonder if we are strangers. When I learn that you discuss your problems and seek advice from all and sundry but do not even consider talking to me as an option, it makes me very angry, it hurts me and breaks my heart into a million pieces. But then things may have changed, I may be among the all and sundry now.
What changed? What went wrong?

My feelings towards you are unchanged. I love and care for you just the same way. And I have no doubt in my mind that you do too. I read some place that "Good relationships are like the hands of a clock. Even though they meet each other for a very short time, they stay connected". Come now, let's forget all the past differences and forgive each other for whatever wrong that we may have done. Let's start with a clean slate and work to get back what we have lost. Knowing that we will be there for each other is something that I count among life's choiciest blessings.

Your affectionate friend.